I want to tell you that living with chronic illness my entire life has given me a grand insight into life and suffering. It hasn’t. I am not a guru; I can’t make my pain go away through positive thoughts. I can’t rely on modern medicine to always come through for me. Some medications don’t work for me; some cause… Read more »
Therapy and dealing with your past and making your mental health a priority is so much harder than pushing it down deep and trying to block it out. It is like having a full-time job where all you do is try to NOT think about it. “It’s in the past, you can’t change it, you can’t fix it.” It’s nonsense…. Read more »
I am continually amazed me how so many people will dismiss the pain of others because they can not comprehend it. Growing up, somewhere on Star Trek, I saw a full-body medical scan device and thought how great it would be to have that handy. I knew early on that my pain was not normal. Attributed to “growing pains” or… Read more »
Last week a woman I know said that there are people who have it worse than she does so she had no right to complain. She shouldn’t be upset – she should get over it. That triggered something in me; throughout my life, I’ve heard similar things. “There are millions of people who would love to have your life. What… Read more »
A little over ten years ago, I had my first experience with Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing ( EMDR ). I couldn’t get past my mother’s death and the trauma that came with being the one who had to tell the doctor that my mother wouldn’t want to be on life support. She had made that clear. Dad and my… Read more »
Rome is burning, but the truth is, I’ve never really cared about Rome. The status quo of western civilizations. Colonization, the theft of history, and the denial of fundamental human rights. I know and accept that we can’t all live in harmony because humans are not a harmonious lot. We rape, pillage, and take more than we need. Waste what… Read more »
Openly allowing grief connected to the trauma and loss will enable me to see the event as if I was looking at a photograph or watching a film. This process had given me the ability to see things as an observer, not a participant.
I turned 47 a few days ago. After 18 months of intense therapy and struggle to find my lost self, I am discovering the person that I knew when I was younger. Fearless, determined, and confident. I don’t know where I lost her along the way, but I am glad she is back. In 2004, after a lifetime of physical… Read more »
I wander down this path where evil shadows lurk dancing in the darkness, calling upon courage to turn and face the monsters each dying shadow reveals more to take its place more to carry on the battle, more to haunt me with the turn of every corner, I grow more determined @lehnanne